Thursday, March 20, 2008 | 10:42 PM
ah.
i owe you an apology,
i guess i was an ass.
wait, i know i was.
you're awesome,
but i guess i never treated you well enough.
no,
i wasn't taking advantage of you.
i guess i was torn apart.
i couldn't think straight,
i couldn't even stand on my own feet.
i was lost
i was depressed.
but yeah,
time didn't really heal my wounds,
it only made me get used to the pain,
now i'm back on my own feet,
i've learnt to ignore certain stuff,
and concentrate on what's in front of me,
what needs to be attended to,
it's unfortunate, really.
i'm really sorry you had to be on the receiving end
of my evil and screwed side.
the side i don't wish to be seen in.
a state of mind where
the only thing that matters,
is for me to get back.
to avenge what you took.
to avenge the pain you caused.
to get back for the damned pain you brought upon us all.
i swear,
one day i'll show you.
i'll prove to you,
i'm not as mentally weak as you think.
i'm not that little useless prick you take me for.
i'm not deserving of the bloody treatment you give.
i'm not as physically weak as you think.
one fine day, you shall see.
the side of me nobody else has.
the side that was only seen once.
the side that you said you never wanted to see anymore.
with every damned word you say,
i move closer to the edge,
i move within inches of the corner.
don't say i never warned you.
you damn well know what i'm capable of.
you've grown up with me,
you watched my every step.
watch my next few,
they may just be the last ones that you see,
